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A Favorite Poem

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“Two roads diverged in a yellow wood,

And sorry I could not travel both

And be one traveler, long I stood

And looked down one as far as I could

To where it bent in the undergrowth;

Then took the other, as just as fair,

And having perhaps the better claim,

Because it was grassy and wanted wear;

Though as for that the passing there

Had worn them really about the same,

And both that morning equally lay

In leaves no step had trodden black.

Oh, I kept the first for another day!

Yet knowing how way leads on to way,

I doubted if I should ever come back.

I shall be telling this with a sigh

Somewhere ages and ages hence:

Two roads diverged in a wood, and I—

I took the one less traveled by,

-Robert Frost

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Perhaps this path on another day.

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Finally Stitching Again

Well after weeks of illness and not being comfortable enough to sit up long enough to do any hand embroidery last week I was finally able to sit up for a little while and I pulled out an old pattern I had prepped on fabric to stitch. (I usually have a few small pieces prepped to stitch).  The pattern was offered free from Crabapple Hill Studios, I just love the cute snowman and witch.

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On the 2nd of July I posted the Spellcaster’s Garden fabric panel the designer Meg Hawkey draws the sweetest witches. I can’t resist them and have The Salem Quilt Guild stitcheries I plan to start soon.  In the meantime I am enjoying the time spent hand embroidering the snowman and witch.

On the medical front it seems my gallbladder will have to be removed as it is no longer functioning, one of the test I had shows me at 1% normal is 35% and above, I am hoping this is the reason for the intense pain and trips to the hospital aside from the aschemic colitis.  I don’t want to think about it too much until the surgery is done and that isn’t going to happen until sometime in September. UGH!

I recently read two interesting books I mentioned in my July 2nd post along with a few fun light mystery books.

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Our rainy season is upon us and late afternoon on the 2nd of July lightening hit in the area and took out my modem I spent about an hour on the phone mostly on hold trying to arrange to have a new modem shipped to me but first I had to wait 24 hours for the technicians in the area to make repairs.  The next day I was able to order the modem and pushed for it to be shipped asap as I work from home and depend on the modem to do business.  The rep kept telling me it wouldn’t go out till Monday or Tuesday but after several discussions the modem arrived on Monday, with a big stoke of luck the line the modem was attached to worked just fine.  Since living in Florida I have lost many small appliances not to mention 4 or 5 landline phones, usually the answering machine.  One motherboard and a computer.  Two years ago only the sound on my TV.  During the summer months or times when we have heavy thunder I normally unplug the TV, Modems, and Computers until the storm passes, Florida is the lightening capital of the world so a strike is inevitable even with surge protectors.

Well that’s all for today I have been sitting a bit too long and need to rest.

 

 

 

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Rain, Garden and My Birthday

I turned 65 years old, 65, an age when I was in my twenties I never thought I would see, since many of the women in my family didn’t see 60, my grandmother and mother both passed at 52, much too young and too soon.  When I turned 53 I was quite relieved, then at the age of 56 I had a heart attack and recovered easily enough after having a stent put in and I’m still going strong.

Over the last 3 months I have been in and out of the hospital for some digestive issues that have plagued me for over 20 years, the first visit to the hospital I was diagnosed with ischemic colitis an infection in the colon, subsequent testing after my third hospital stay revealed my gallbladder is no longer working and on Monday after going over the results with the doctor he informed me the gallbladder would need to be removed.  I can tell you I was relieved and angry at the same time, they knew the results in May so why wasn’t the surgery done then? It would have saved me a month of suffering with unbearable pain that ultimately sent me to the ER for pain relief.  Well water under the bridge I now wait for the surgeon to go over all the test results and make an appointment to schedule the surgery.

For my birthday the gift of rain came finally and believe me when I tell you it has made a difference it the air quality.  My return from the post office had gray clouds over head but the day before the gray clouds passed right by so I kept saying let it rain today let it rain.

It did and my thirsty plants are quite happy because using a watering can when the temps hit 98 everyday just doesn’t soak the plants as a good rain. Since I had the first attack of pain in March my time in the garden has been limited. Bending forward causes intense pain and discomfort not to mention nausea that stays all day.  So I water twice a day with my watering can and so far my plants have survived.  The Mexican petunias are thriving and growing like crazy, these lovely purple flowers were planted in the bed by the previous owner of my house.

I hope I will be well enough to plant a Fall garden this year since all my plans for the Spring garden couldn’t happen. My first hospital stay happened 3 days after I bought the first of my new spring plants which luckily survived despite not getting any water for several days and the one day it finally rained 3 of the plants had fallen over. All the seedlings I had started didn’t make it by the time I was discharged they were dried to a crisp, but that’s how gardening goes some seasons things work well and some seasons you lose.

I miss getting my hands in the soil but for now regaining my health is my number one priority along with watering my few plants daily.  Summertime in Florida is our rainy season and usually July is the time when those daily rains come so I am hoping this year will be a wet one.

I have received some lovely birthday gifts from a lovely teapot for one, moon phase blocks and an edible arrangement from my great niece Tessa.

 

The Witches Brew teapot for one will get quite a bit of use, I love tea and my son and his fiancee gave me some lovely teas and succulent plant as well, the Muse Moon book is a journal of sorts from a friend. The edible arrangement is just lovely and those moon phase blocks will make a nice addition to my altar.

Oh I must show the panel from the lovely new fabric line by Meg Hawkey of Crabapple Hill Studios, this one is Spellcaster’s Garden

I also bought a few coordinating fabrics to go with the panel but they haven’t arrived yet.  I love the all the Crabapple Hill Witch patterns and fabric lines ever since I first hand embroidered the Hocuspocusville quilt blocks.  I am hoping this new line will have some hand embroidery patterns.  Since being ill I haven’t done much hand embroidery or crocheting, the pain makes it hard to hold my attention long enough for me to focus, on good days I do put a few stitches in a project or two but mostly I have been reading. Recently I have finished Waking the Witch and I’m halfway through Memoir of a Witch.

On my to read pile is Seasons of Moon and Flame and two Witchcraft magazines.

 

 

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I AM 65 Today

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Happy Summer Solstice and a Blessed Litha!

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Garden update

Despite several hospital stays, and weeks of bed rest my plants are still surviving, the knockout roses which were fairly dead in the beginning of April have responded to a trim, careful watering and has rebloomed. The tomato plant which fell over several times has given me some lovely tomatoes which at this time I can’t eat so I have been giving them away. The yellow Hibiscus which was totally striped of all growth early in the spring has regained its foliage and given me several sunshine yellow flowers. and the Mexican Petunias continue to bloom each day, this is before they open completely. Life finds a way.

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A Poem to Share

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I’M MADE OF SCRAPS

I am made of scraps.
Colorful bits of every life that goes through mine
and that I am sewing in the soul.
They are not always pretty,
not always happy,
but they add me and make me who I am.
In every encounter, in every contact,
I’m getting older …
In each patch a life,
a lesson, a love, a nostalgia …
That make me more of a person,
more human, more complete.
And I think this is how life is made:
pieces of other people who are becoming part of the people too.
And the best part is that we will never be ready or finished …
There will always be a patch to add to the soul.
So, thanks to each of you,
that are part of my life and that allow me to enhance my story with the remnants left in me.
That I too can leave bits of me on the roads and that they can be part of their stories.
And so, from piece to piece we can become, one day,
in an immense embroidery of “we”.

Cora Coralina. Carioca poet.

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Wishing A Very Happy Beltane to All!

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Blessings for Earth Healers

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Blessing for Earth Healers

“We give thanks for all those who are moved, in their lives, to heal and protect the earth, in small ways and in large.

Blessings on the com-posters, the gardeners, the breeders of worms and mushrooms, the soil-builders, those who cleanse the waters and purify the air, all those who clean up the messes others have made.

Blessings on those who defend trees and who plant trees, who guard the forests and who renew the forests.

Blessings on those who learn to heal the grasslands and renew the streams, on those who prevent erosion, who restore the salmon and the fisheries, who guard the healing herbs and who know the lore of the wild plants.

Blessings on those who heal the cities and bring them alive again with excitement and creativity and love.

Gratitude and blessings to all who stand against greed, who risk themselves, to those who have bled and been wounded, and to those who have given their lives in service of the earth.

May all the healers of the earth find their own healing.

May they be fueled by passionate love for the earth.

May they know their fear but not be stopped by fear.

May they feel their anger and yet not be ruled by rage.

May they honor their grief but not be paralyzed by sorrow.

May they transform fear, rage, and grief into compassion and the inspiration to act in service of what they love.

May they find the help, the resources, the courage, the luck, the strength, the love, the health, the joy that they need to do the work.

May they be in the right place, at the right time, in the right way.

May they bring alive a great awakening, open a listening ear to hear the earth’s voice, transform imbalance to balance, hate and greed to love.

Blessed be the healers of the earth.”

~ Starhawk

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Becoming

Hello Goddess.
Goddess: Hello…..

Me: I’m falling apart..
Can you put me back together?
Goddess: I would rather not.

Me: Why?
Goddess: Because you aren’t a puzzle.

Me: What about all of the pieces of my life that are falling down onto the ground?
Goddess: Let them stay there for a while.
They fell off for a reason.
Take some time and decide if you need any of those pieces back.

Me: You don’t understand!
I’m breaking down!
Goddess: No – you don’t understand.
You are breaking through.
What you are feeling are just growing pains. You are shedding the things and the people in your life that are holding you back.
You aren’t falling apart.
You are falling into place.
Relax.
Take some deep breaths and allow those things you don’t need anymore to fall off of you.
Quit holding onto the pieces that don’t fit you anymore.
Let them fall off.
Let them go.

Me: Once I start doing that, what will be left of me?
Goddess: Only the very best pieces of you.

Me: I’m scared of changing.
Goddess: I keep telling you – YOU AREN’T CHANGING!! YOU ARE BECOMING!

Me: Becoming who?
Goddess: Becoming who I created you to be!
A person of light, charity, hope, courage, joy, mercy, grace and compassion.
I made you for more than the shallow pieces you have decided to adorn yourself with that you cling to with such greed and fear.
Let those things fall off of you.
I love you!
Don’t change!
Become! Become! Become!
Become who I made you to be.
I’m going to keep telling you this until you remember it.

Me: There goes another piece.
Goddess: Yep. Let it be.

Me: So…I’m not broken?
Goddess: No – but you are breaking like the dawn. It’s a new day. Become!!

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